tori beth™

I set out to paint you a picture in the sky.

One that you wish you could frame and stare at all day, longingly.

One that never gets old or less beautiful.

You'd stare at it until you go blind,

And I'd just stare at you all the same.

I set out to write you a song that was all yours.

One that you wish you could listen to until you fell asleep at night.

One that never gets old or less beautiful.

You’d listen to it until you go deaf.

And I’d hear…

A power surge like you have never heard of. I've got so much rage flowing the these wires, so much rage. The ohms are no match for this electric current anymore. I'll take this house and make it my ampere empire. I'll trip the all of the fuses and wear down the copper insulation. You spit game, baby, I breathe fire. I'll burn this house down to ash and memories. I've got the power. The electrons collide and flow, collide and flow. So now, you're sitting in the dark, holding back your only heart. But little do you know, you're at my mercy. The lights burn violently bright, then everything goes black. And you can't see. You can't see a single thing. So, you hold your heart closer as you grab a flashlight and head to the basement. You find the circuit breaker, but you're not sure which switch to flick.…

i would have been there to hold your hands, wipe your tears, nurse you back to health.

i would have been there, in my white dress, walking down the aisle towards you.

i would have been there to sing you to sleep, sing to you until my lungs began to bleed.

i would have given you the world, the moon on a string, and a brand new corvette if you wanted one.

i would have given you the love that she cold never even grasp the concept of.

i would have given you children and a white picket fence.

i would have grown old by your side and never let you go.

i would have let you win some of the fights that we could have had.

i would have given up my dreams to stay at home to take care of you.

i would have loved you until my last dying breath.

but the end came like a hurricane…

vows broken like the shards of the shattered vase strewn across the floor.

you said you'd never hurt me. i told myself you were a liar.

now, i'm walking all over this broken glass. bloody footsteps leading to the door.

leading to freedom.

the ring was a symbol of our love. i guess it just means nothing now.

a reminder of the past. a bitter pill, too big to swallow.

the taste of you is in my mouth, arsenic flavored.

i'm choking on the lies and tales you told me over the years.

i need the heimlich manuver just to make it through the day.

i step closer to the door, and i try to escape your grasp on me.

i don't look back. if i look at those eyes, i know you'll pull me back in.

you're my kryptonite and the air i breathe.

you're my cancerous tumor and the water i drink.

you kill me, but you keep me alive.

but this…