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Test Eight
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8 mos ago
Lies are lies in everybody's eyes
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i am not yours, all the same
Journal
10 mos ago
I set out to paint you a picture in the sky. One that you wish you could frame and stare at all day, longingly. One that never gets old or less beautiful. You'd stare at it until you go blind, And I'd just stare at you all the same.
I set out to write you a song that was all yours. One that you wish you could listen to until you fell asleep at night. One that never gets old or less beautiful. You’d listen to it until you go deaf. And I’d hear |
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Test One
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10 mos ago
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Circuit Breaker
Journal
10 mos ago
A power surge like you have never heard of. I've got so much rage flowing the these wires, so much rage. The ohms are no match for this electric current anymore. I'll take this house and make it my ampere empire. I'll trip the all of the fuses and wear down the copper insulation. You spit game, baby, I breathe fire. I'll burn this house down to ash and memories. I've got the power. The electrons collide and flow, collide and flow. So now, you're sitting in the dark, holding back your only heart. But little do you know, you're at my mercy. The lights burn violently bright, then everything goes black. And you can't see. You can't see a single thing. So, you hold your heart closer as you grab a flashlight and head to the basement. You find the circuit breaker, but you're not sure which switch to flick. |
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"I Only Loved You In Theory."
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11 mos ago
I saw the meaning of life in that smile. A fleeting glimpse never resonated so loudly. Earth-shattering yet unnoticed is what we once were. What we used to be. The past could have never held us together, and the present unravelles the ties that once bound. The future is today, and I don't see this ending elegantly. Profound with your words and subtle disdain that no one catches but me. You'll always catch my eye. White whale, this captain dies for you once, and those liner notes were previously written by talented hands. Allusions, illustrations, and quarter-hearted apologies are all we will ever be. I simply need more than that, but I hold on so tightly to the people we used to be. I dream about those adolescent nights under the stars, on your trampoline, and at the shore. Those toothless grins and first kisses. Those nights I spent dreaming of you
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Innocence
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11 mos ago
When I was invisible, and no one really saw me, there you were. Standing at the door, clad in black. I was sitting in a white room, smiling in a white room, but there you were. And you told me to follow you. You told me to leave that room and taste your lips. You were so beautiful. I couldn't ignore it, and I couldn't hide it. I was far too sheltered to lie and be impolite. I followed you. I fell for you. You made yourself up to be this man of mysticism and glory when you were merely a boy with a cape. But those green eyes beckoned me further into this world you called home. I didn't even miss my white room. You showed me rebellion, and you sparked that fire deep inside my heart. You let me be who I am not what I "should" be. I thanked
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i just want somebody to love me like i love you.
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12 mos ago
I know that these hands will never be yours. I know that these lips are not meant to touch yours. I know that this heart should not belong to you. I know that I will never be the love of your life. But all of these nots and nevers don't change the way I still feel about you. They don't change the fact that I still want you, need you like water and oxygen. I just want to feel whole again. To have someone adore me and care for me like I do for you. I need someone to reconstruct my heart so I can feel again. I want that unconditional love that I felt for you. When two hearts are intertwined and beating as one. I want to feel as if nothing but death could break that bond apart. I just want somebody to love me like I love you.
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Sand Melts Like Tears.
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1 yr ago
I watched us dissolve into the mess we've created. I watched us fade into the background of yesterday, losing all hope for the future. I felt you slip through my hands like miniscule grains of sand on the beach. The same sand where we used to play in as toddlers. The same sand on which we shared our first kiss. The same sand where we stood like statues and said our goodbyes. Everything we had.... It's all gone, washed away in the cold, cruel ocean of our teenage years. Why can't we go back to those good old days, building sand castles instead of breaking down hearts. Go back to when I thought your eyes shined brighter and truer than the sun, instead of burning holes into my soul. Go back to when at least some part of your heart was designated for me. I thought that if I wished upon those shooting stars, maybe, just
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prolonging the inevitable
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1 yr 1 mo ago
i would have been there to hold your hands, wipe your tears, nurse you back to health. i would have been there, in my white dress, walking down the aisle towards you. i would have been there to sing you to sleep, sing to you until my lungs began to bleed. i would have given you the world, the moon on a string, and a brand new corvette if you wanted one. i would have given you the love that she cold never even grasp the concept of. i would have given you children and a white picket fence. i would have grown old by your side and never let you go. i would have let you win some of the fights that we could have had. i would have given up my dreams to stay at home to take care of you. i would have loved you until my last dying breath. but the end came like a hurricane |
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i am not who you thought i was.
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1 yr 1 mo ago
vows broken like the shards of the shattered vase strewn across the floor. you said you'd never hurt me. i told myself you were a liar. now, i'm walking all over this broken glass. bloody footsteps leading to the door. leading to freedom. the ring was a symbol of our love. i guess it just means nothing now. a reminder of the past. a bitter pill, too big to swallow. the taste of you is in my mouth, arsenic flavored. i'm choking on the lies and tales you told me over the years. i need the heimlich manuver just to make it through the day. i step closer to the door, and i try to escape your grasp on me. i don't look back. if i look at those eyes, i know you'll pull me back in. you're my kryptonite and the air i breathe. you're my cancerous tumor and the water i drink. you kill me, but you keep me alive. but this |


